Category Archives: Career Conundrums

The effect of cancer upon one’s career.

After the Crisis, Ambiguity

Since August I have been struggling to write. Writer’s block would be the easy explanation. But as reality has it, there is so much more going on. For the first year of my diagnosis I scorched Earth with my posts. … Continue reading

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Me and My Shadow

I have to be honest: it’s been a conscious effort to think about cancer recently.  Not that I’m complaining, who the heck wants to think about cancer all the time?  Who knew it could be so easy?  I love being … Continue reading

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Two Weeks In

“We’re ya been, Scorchy?” I saw that subject line in my Inbox and realized that I have not been writing.  And there’s a reason:  I’M WORKING AGAIN! I’M WORKING AGAIN!  Ah, what a wonderful thing.  This tumor flare/spondylosis crisis that … Continue reading

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A Perfectly Unnatural State

Over the last week or so I’ve been struggling with something stuck in my craw.  I’m not sure what it is, although I’ve been trying desperately to find out.   The thoughts go something like this: Yeah, I know.  All over … Continue reading

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Don’t Be Stupid

I’ve been slowly pushing back into work and it’s been going well.  Just as I get going it’s time to go home.  I pushed it a bit one day and paid for it the next, but I’m getting there.  Patience, … Continue reading

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Six Months

Today is the six month mark.  I guess some would term it a “cancerversary,” but I wouldn’t call it that.  First, because I hate the term “cancerversary.”   And, second, I haven’t bought any commemorative jewelry for the occasion.   (Note: … Continue reading

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What I Want

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Just

We’re all so programmed to minimize our experiences.  I hear it a lot among women with breast cancer.  Whether it be in a discussion board or face-to-face conversation, it doesn’t take long for someone to say “I’m just dealing with … Continue reading

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Professional Identity in Crisis

Today might be the hardest hit I’ve taken with this breast cancer crap.  In mid-September, I woke up and my lower back hurt.  I took it in stride, took two Motrin, and waited for it to pass.  It stayed.  I … Continue reading

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Dream Talking

Did you ever have one of those odd dreams where you are trying to talk, but your words come out in slow motion?  As you’re trying to speak you can’t and some part of your mind is fighting back and … Continue reading

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