Category Archives: Stage IV Musings

The exploration of mortality, disease, and quality of life.

After the Crisis, Ambiguity

Since August I have been struggling to write. Writer’s block would be the easy explanation. But as reality has it, there is so much more going on. For the first year of my diagnosis I scorched Earth with my posts. … Continue reading

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Kobayashi Maru

My latest paincation was intense and it was made more so by the experience of radiation. Now, like most things in this disease I was fortunate: only five consecutive days and maybe twenty minutes of my time each day. But … Continue reading

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Purple Haze

This is what my knitting looks like these days: Knit 4, yarn over 1, knit two together, knit 23, Yarn Over 1, Knit 8  . . . oh wait knit SEVEN!  Okay, unknit 1.  Now continue . . . knit … Continue reading

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Emergency Room

It has been awhile since I have posted.  I apologize for my silence; you can probably reason that it takes quite a bit to shut me up.  And you would be right.  But this paincation has been particularly brutal.  And … Continue reading

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Seeing Stars

There’s a popular saying among knitters: “I knit so I don’t kill people.”  Over the past two months I’ve  been saying “I knit so I don’t kill myself.” This paincation has been brutal–thus my prolonged absence from the blogosphere.  When … Continue reading

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Progression

When I ended the call I stared at the screen looking for an app that I could consult for answers.  But the reality?   There was no app. I had just spoken with my oncologist and learned that Tamoxifen, the drug … Continue reading

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Cancer is Hard When You’re Alone

I sure do love historical analysis–as you have no doubt observed if you’ve read The Sarcastic Boob with any regularity.  Breast cancer is a fascinating subject and fits right into my love of knowledgeable discourse.  The implications of gender and … Continue reading

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The Downside of Virtual Interaction

Since my breast cancer diagnosis and–48 hours later–the creation of this blog, I have sung the praises of social media.  As my readership grew and my Twitter numbers blossomed, virtual roots that were planted started to flourish in a garden … Continue reading

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Me and My Shadow

I have to be honest: it’s been a conscious effort to think about cancer recently.  Not that I’m complaining, who the heck wants to think about cancer all the time?  Who knew it could be so easy?  I love being … Continue reading

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Hallmark: The Dark Side

Well, we can all rest easy.  Apparently Hallmark has begun to recognize the hospice card niche.  I wasn’t aware that there was a need for specific cards to address the end of one’s life or their caregivers.  But in this … Continue reading

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