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Flayed Alive

I used to love to enthrall my history students with tales of the Assyrians. They would flay their victims while they were alive and parade them in cages to the next village on their map of conquest in order to … Continue reading

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Past Tense

The paperwork is in. Fifty pages compiled by four people and faxed to two insurance companies. Disability. I didn’t want to do it. Indeed, for two years I fought hard to crawl my way back to who I was. I can hardly … Continue reading

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STFU

So I’ve been attempting to write post after post after post, inevitably trashing them all. I tried one on depression, one on anxiety, one on pink. Whatever I tried it just never worked. And I have to say that through … Continue reading

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Remission

The Catch-22 of having metastatic breast cancer is this: when you’re caught in a period of crisis all you hope for is that your scans will improve, the pain will lessen or go away, your energy will return, and that … Continue reading

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Released from Prison

Where the hell have I been these past few months? Well, ever since my last episode with radiation of a painful bone tumor in my sacrum, I seem to have misplaced my voice. It could likely be lost among my yarn stash, but … Continue reading

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After the Crisis, Ambiguity

Since August I have been struggling to write. Writer’s block would be the easy explanation. But as reality has it, there is so much more going on. For the first year of my diagnosis I scorched Earth with my posts. … Continue reading

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Kobayashi Maru

My latest paincation was intense and it was made more so by the experience of radiation. Now, like most things in this disease I was fortunate: only five consecutive days and maybe twenty minutes of my time each day. But … Continue reading

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Me and My Shadow

I have to be honest: it’s been a conscious effort to think about cancer recently.  Not that I’m complaining, who the heck wants to think about cancer all the time?  Who knew it could be so easy?  I love being … Continue reading

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Two Weeks In

“We’re ya been, Scorchy?” I saw that subject line in my Inbox and realized that I have not been writing.  And there’s a reason:  I’M WORKING AGAIN! I’M WORKING AGAIN!  Ah, what a wonderful thing.  This tumor flare/spondylosis crisis that … Continue reading

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Don’t Be Stupid

I’ve been slowly pushing back into work and it’s been going well.  Just as I get going it’s time to go home.  I pushed it a bit one day and paid for it the next, but I’m getting there.  Patience, … Continue reading

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