Tag Archives: fear

Past Tense

The paperwork is in. Fifty pages compiled by four people and faxed to two insurance companies. Disability. I didn’t want to do it. Indeed, for two years I fought hard to crawl my way back to who I was. I can hardly … Continue reading

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STFU

So I’ve been attempting to write post after post after post, inevitably trashing them all. I tried one on depression, one on anxiety, one on pink. Whatever I tried it just never worked. And I have to say that through … Continue reading

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One More Thing!

Okay, just one more commentary on this ad campaign and I will move on. When I found out that I had breast cancer, the world-class surgeon to whom I was referred downplayed its seriousness.  When I look back, it has … Continue reading

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You Want It? You Got It.

Dear Ladies Who Want My Breast Cancer, I know that my blog posts and Twitter activity have been minimal since august of 2013. It was a miserable year filled with tests, pain, and uncertainty. I think I have been distant … Continue reading

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Kobayashi Maru

My latest paincation was intense and it was made more so by the experience of radiation. Now, like most things in this disease I was fortunate: only five consecutive days and maybe twenty minutes of my time each day. But … Continue reading

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The Downside of Virtual Interaction

Since my breast cancer diagnosis and–48 hours later–the creation of this blog, I have sung the praises of social media.  As my readership grew and my Twitter numbers blossomed, virtual roots that were planted started to flourish in a garden … Continue reading

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Where’s the Empathy?

I have to tell you, every twist and turn of this cancer experience always reveals something new.  There is the physical stuff: physiology, biology, and chemistry.  There is the psychological stuff: fear, resolve, sadness. happiness, and uncertainty.  And then there … Continue reading

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Professional Identity in Crisis

Today might be the hardest hit I’ve taken with this breast cancer crap.  In mid-September, I woke up and my lower back hurt.  I took it in stride, took two Motrin, and waited for it to pass.  It stayed.  I … Continue reading

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The Anchor (Part One)

I have two crafts that I love: cross-stitch and knitting. Years ago I visited one of my favorite places in the world, Wintherthur, and marveled at a corner nook filled with antique samplers.  I was already producing samplers of my … Continue reading

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Acceptance and Fear

When I was a little girl I had Barbies–in the 1960s, who didn’t?  I played with them all the time, but what I loved most was the case.  It was a big Barbie/Francie case that had plenty of room for … Continue reading

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