Tag Archives: knitting

STFU

Posted on October 8, 2014 by Scorchy

So I’ve been attempting to write post after post after post, inevitably trashing them all. I tried one on depression, one on anxiety, one on pink. Whatever I tried it just never worked. And I have to say that through … Continue reading →

Posted in My Stage IV Life, Social Commentary, Stage IV Musings | Tagged "cure rates", anxiety, Attitude, awareness, Beyond the Pink Moon, boredom, boring, breast, breast cancer, Breast Cancer Awareness Month, Cancer Culture, cancer loop, Cancertown, career, Diagnosis, Exemestane, Facebook, fear, friends, frustration, knitting, Komen, Lyrica, MBC, metastasis, metastatic breast cancer, OxyContin, Philosophy, pink ribbon, Pinktober, Stage IV, stage iv breast cancer, STFU, stigma, strong, support, TODAY, Treatment, vulnerability, whiney | 61 Comments

Remission

Posted on July 5, 2014 by Scorchy

The Catch-22 of having metastatic breast cancer is this: when you’re caught in a period of crisis all you hope for is that your scans will improve, the pain will lessen or go away, your energy will return, and that … Continue reading →

Posted in My Stage IV Life | Tagged Attitude, awareness, breast cancer, breasts, cancer cell, Cancer Culture, career, Catch-22, Diagnosis, Exemestane, exhaustion, friends, frustration, Humor, knitting, Lupron, metastasis, metastatic breast cancer, pain management, PET/CT, Philosophy, remission, Stage IV, stage iv breast cancer, support, Tamoxifen, Treatment, vulnerability, Xgeva | 40 Comments

Released from Prison

Posted on June 13, 2014 by Scorchy

Where the hell have I been these past few months? Well, ever since my last episode with radiation of a painful bone tumor in my sacrum, I seem to have misplaced my voice. It could likely be lost among my yarn stash, but … Continue reading →

Posted in My Stage IV Life | Tagged breast cancer, breasts, career, compartmentalization, denial, depression, friends, frustration, guilt, knitting, metastasis, metastatic breast cancer, pain, pain management, pain. chronic pain, prison, scan, self-worth, social life, socialization, Stage IV, stage iv breast cancer, stigma, support, Treatment, vulnerability | 20 Comments

Purple Haze

Posted on July 29, 2013 by Scorchy

This is what my knitting looks like these days: Knit 4, yarn over 1, knit two together, knit 23, Yarn Over 1, Knit 8 . . . oh wait knit SEVEN! Okay, unknit 1. Now continue . . . knit … Continue reading →

Posted in My Stage IV Life, Stage IV Musings | Tagged awareness, breast cancer, knitting, metastasis, metastatic breast cancer, Methadone, Oxycodone, pain, pain management, Radiation, side-effects, Stage IV, stage iv breast cancer, talking in sleep, Treatment, vulnerability | 40 Comments

Seeing Stars

Posted on July 4, 2013 by Scorchy

There’s a popular saying among knitters: “I knit so I don’t kill people.” Over the past two months I’ve been saying “I knit so I don’t kill myself.” This paincation has been brutal–thus my prolonged absence from the blogosphere. When … Continue reading →

Posted in My Stage IV Life, Stage IV Musings | Tagged bone metastasis, breast cancer, knitting, Letrozole, lytic lesion, metastasis, metastatic breast cancer, MRI, nerve ablation, Oxycodone, pain, pain management, Paincation, PET/CT, Radiation, Stage IV, stage iv breast cancer, Tamoxifen, Treatment, vulnerability | 67 Comments

What I Did On My Autumn Paincation

Posted on December 21, 2012 by Scorchy

Life has sure been a challenge since late September. A period I have begun to call my paincation. It has been a rough couple of months physically and psychologically Just at the point that every challenge turned me into a … Continue reading →

Posted in My Stage IV Life | Tagged Attitude, breast cancer, chronic disease, chronic pain, Etsy, exhausted, exhaustion, Humor, knitting, Lidocaine patches, Lidoderm, Lyrica, metastasis, metastatic breast cancer, narcotics, Oxycodone, pain, pain management, pain relief, Paincation, patience, Peg Bundy, Protopage, Stage IV, stage iv breast cancer, Treatment, vulnerability | 21 Comments

Friends: Our Chosen Family

Posted on December 12, 2012 by Scorchy

I really appreciate my friends. For me they are as much my family as anything else in the world. They make me laugh, think, wonder, and enjoy life in a way I could not otherwise. What I love about my … Continue reading →

Posted in My Stage IV Life | Tagged friends, knitting, metastasis, metastatic breast cancer, Stage IV, stage iv breast cancer, support | 21 Comments

Prognosis

Posted on November 30, 2012 by Scorchy

The first time I heard the word “prognosis” as part of this little breast cancer adventure was back in July when I was diagnosed. 80% was the magic number. I had an 80% chance of survival. I remember saying, “Can’t … Continue reading →

Posted in My Stage IV Life, Stage IV Musings | Tagged Attitude, breast cancer, breasts, career, Death Star, Diagnosis, end of life planning, frustration, knitting, lytic lesion, Media, metastasis, metastatic breast cancer, pain, prognosis, quality of life, retirement, retirement savings, savings, Stage IV, stage iv breast cancer, support, Tamoxifen, Tamoxifuck, TFK, Treatment, vulnerability, wills | 23 Comments

The Anchor (Part Two)

Posted on November 13, 2012 by Scorchy

When I realized that knitting had become a life preserver throughout this breast cancer experience, I wondered if anyone else had given this any thought. I am known to over think even the smallest things and that often makes me … Continue reading →